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Hello,

I really appreciate all the advice even though hard to hear.

I feel torn, so a difficult week for me and my husband. Finding the most recent messages to his AP has been like a light switch and has really killed all my feelings for him. I have asked him to leave but he won’t but we are in separate rooms again.

Anyway, he is now blaming his continued contact with her on the drink and messaging her when drunk. I have not seen much evidence of her replying, but this morning he was saying she has begged him to leave for the past two years which he hasn’t as some evidence that he cares a lot about me. I am guessing she is now sick of him

Anyway, he is now admitting that he has an alcohol problem and is finally trying to get help for it by reading self help books. He is also agreeing to marriage counselling as the only form of therapy he will do, as he just hates it and says he needs my support. I have some concerns about this, as I feel so angry, hurt and let down and not sure if this will just trigger him to drink more.i also fee my being mean will not be good for him to quit.
I have been really mean to him, not allowing him to touch me, getting cross and angry which I have told him I didn’t want to do hence I wanted him to move out. It is like I am just finally so sick of the lying, and the infidelity and the drinking. But he seems to think he will get me back. He is constantly going through my phone, my search history and getting upset by that. He now keeps giving me his phone and wants me to go through it where as before he was cagey about it. Has he finally woken up to the damage he has caused? but it has been two years of it and I don’t know if this is fixable.

Have others been here? Dealt with addictions like this?

I’m guessing that if you search long enough you can probably find a book about how to remove your appendix at home in six easy steps...
Just like you can find self-help books about how to stop drinking.

Not drinking will be easy for him. All he needs to read is this:
STOP DRINKING. DON’T DRINK.

It’s really that simple.
What’s hard is REMAINING sober.
That’s where he will fail. Again, and again, and again, and again.

If he is sincere in his sobriety he will go to AA or something comparable.
Somewhere he has to be daily for the next 30-90 days and convince cynical people that have already seen this all that he’s still sober.
This is not something he will deal with by spending half an hour every evening reading a chapter in a book.

His infidelity might be supported by his alcoholism. But both are fed by his mentality.
In your shoes I would not bother with MC until he brings home the 60 day sober coin they will give him at AA – if he remains sober for that period.